Roxy rockzx!

Saw a couple of stuff in the Roxy website which is really really really nice... I am so in love with their dresses!!!
Love it so much!!!

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Farewell peeps.

Yesterday was ELS's farewell party... it was really fun but sad at the same time... I'll miss you all a lot... when I saw priscilla cry, I cant help but to cry... Cuz she is exactly like me, the things she been through... Its really the same...

To the senior three people, man... they really took care of me... really took care of me, gave me so much love, make me feel that I could love this society even more...
I'll miss yen qi, i really love her so much.. she is so much fun... I really love her like my elder sis, Jenny, thankz for trusting me that I can be a rs leader, thankzx for trusting me, I'll do a good job, priscilla aka hot tuna, man... you rock, we might not be close, but... you're so awesome!!! Love you to bits! Jie wei, man, big guy, tkz a lot... you're really a great friend, really awesome. jia round, man.. you brought so much happiness to this society. Peter and Jobie, thankz a lot for accepting me into this family... tkz a lot..We'll never forget you, els welcomes you always and forever....

Next year will be my turn... The person that I dont wanna leave the most in this society is my dear sister traceline and zoey. They're the most awesome ppl I can ever find, especially trace, you're like my twin, I could say a thousand times and yet is not enough...You're like my sister, my best friend, without you i cant stay strong till this day... I dont wanna think so much bout next year's farewell but all I can do is cherish every moment, in this home of mine, not sure what will next year be... But I'll try to do my best and I'll try to make the best out of it. I'll try my best to be an awesome RS leader. Vic and Trace I'll do my best... I wont let you both down. definitely.

To the farewell party committee
Without you guys this will never happen,
especially yivonn and traceline...
Yivonn you did so much, put in so much effort in this society,
and in this farewell party, you're responsible. And really, thankz for trusting me that I can do a good job. There's so many in the future but I know this friend of mine, yivonn will help mem give me support thru out the whole thing. Thank you. mwah~
Traceline dear, you gave me so much support, though it might be frustrating thru out the whole process but you wont fail to ask me to stay strong. thank you so so much. you gave me so much ideas.. And I wouldnt have do it without you.
You two, really i wanna thank you both from the bottom of my heart.
士豪, tkz a lot lad, you really helped out a lot... thankz for your ideas...
and lastly, victor darling, thankxz for your support and everything, thankzx for believing in me... I need your full support no matter what. I love u!

ELS ROCKZ SO SO MUCH!

Honesty.

Victor,
It might be hard for us, hard for me, hard for you...
But I believe we could pull it through...
Like you said, love that go through hardships are true love,
I'll stay strong and trust what you said...
Sometimes it's hard to love me
Sometimes it's hard to love you too
I know it's hard believing
That love can pull us through
It would be so easy
To live your life

All I ask from you is try to be honest to me,
tell me your thoughts,
tell me what you want,
tell me what do you actually have in mind.
Please, thats what I ask from you...
Its you being honest to me...
I dont care whether it hurts me inside,
I dont care whether it cuts me inside,
I dont care whether I am bleeding inside...
I dont care bout all of this..
It hurts more when you keep everything inside,
It hurts more when you hide things from me...
All I ask from you is you to be honest to me.
Thats all I ask from you.
Honesty

Specially For Tracey.

Hey, Tracey...
I just wanna say its okay... But no matter what...
I'll be strong...
Just stay with me all the time...
I really need your support fully...
Eventhough I have my friends and vic,
but tracey, yours really mean the world to me...
You;re like my sister,
Just like my another twin..
I am really sorry that I let you down being negative and all.
But I'll change my views, my negative thinking...
I'll be strong,
I'll be the same nicole you have ever known...
The happy, the hypo,
the freak, the crazy one...
this is my promise to you.
Love ya a lot tracey~
Thankz so much!
Mwah~

I can conquer this fear!!!!

I am not too sure what thoughts I am having now,
but for sure they are really scary thoughts...
First is about Vic,
I am afraid...
Afraid of wot?
Afraid of losing you,
Afraid you will fall for someone else,
Afraid you will be so busy and I'll lose you just like that..
This fear fill me up with tears,
fill me up with anger....
But I know I could conquer this fear with God's help.

Secondly, its about being a RS leader,
Afraid of wot?
Afraid of pressure,
Afraid I might not be able to bring fun to the members,
Afraid I cant lead my members well,
Afraid that I cant provide good ideas...
This fill me up with tears,
fill me up with pressure,
But I know I could conquer this fear with God's help.

Lastly, its about my studies,
Afraid of wot?
Afraid I cant achieve good results,
Afraid I cant get the results I want,
Afraid I cant make it out of pressure.
This too fill me up with tears,
fill me up with frustrations.
But I know I could conquer this with God's help.

Jesus Christ you are my refuge, my strength,
you promise to lift me out of the miry clay,
you'll be there to guide me,
be there to help me and support me.
Thank you father.
I'll put my trust in you like what you ask me to,
"trust in the lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding,
In all ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths."

Nicole will conquer this fear,
and she'll be the happy gal that you all know.

I am so lucky!

Gosh, what can I say huh?
I feel like I am the luckiest person on earth...
Being emo for the past few days was like awful..its like so tiring and all...
But right now I am learning how to appreaciate how life goes,
Cuz it has to be imperfect to be perfect....
things might not turn out the way its suppose to be,
but its okay...
cuz everything happens for a reason...
Eventhough I might not get what I want,
eventhough I tried so hard in acheiving it,
I'll try again...
No giving up.
Chinese might be a difficult subject,
but I have to try my best to acheive it...

Thankzx darling for being such a great person.
you're really sweet!!!
I love you really much darling!
Really much!!! Mwah mwah mwah!!!!
Love you darling...
I love what we're having right now...
I love everything!

•Messed up!•

Feeling hungry,
feeling dirty,
feeling messed up.
Is this what normal peeps feel?
Feeling really pain inside,
its like,
You wanna scream it out loud,
You wanna break free from this shit you're going through,
Trying so hard to actually find a true best friend,
who actually listen to all your crap, your feelings,
relate them in the exact same way,
Trying to fit in a place where you actually belong...
Cuz you're so sick of faking it,
so sick of acting,
showing this people you're fine,
but inside you're bleeding,
you're crying,
you're screaming...
I don't know bout tis peeps,
but I am like that for sure....
I am trying to fake it..
Its like putting on a mask every single day till it becomes a habit...
Till you don't know what has become of you...

Vic,
I wanna apologize for feeling this way,
I am waiting for your call,
but you're asleep..
All I can do is write my feelings out here....
The thing i wanna ask is...
"Am I holding onto you too tight?"
Please do tell me...
So I know when I can let go...