A day with vic.

Today is really awesome!!! Exams are over, and I could rest this brain of mine for the time being before spm starts.

I had an awesome time with Victor today. We went to tebrau ctiy. We sat a public bus there, it was a really nice ride, love every moment. Our actual plan is just go have baskin robins then head home. But we reached there around 11 am? And its early for movie, really early, so we went to the movie theatre and bought a 11:30 am movie, we watched hsm3 of course. haha... The movie was nice I think... I love Gabriela's dress in that movie, every dress she wore really looks good on her. And then we went to the bookshop, then we went to Lavender to have lunch. Its really cool that we talked out loads of stuff in front of each other, be honest in front of each other. Overall, it was an awesome date I think.

It was quite short but.. I lurve every moment..

Vic, thankzx a lot for today. I really had an awesome time with you.
It was such a nice date. Just talking and talking... I lurve it a lot! Lurve you darling! Mwah~

I should try french or maybe spanish?

Everyone is using English to write their blogs these few days... I guess its kinda cool maybe??
However for me, I wanna try something different..
I wanna learn Spanish or maybe French, even though people wont understand but its kinda cool I think.

Its time for some self redeeming on the hols..
Do the stuff I wanna do, do stuff that I am unable to do for this whole year..
Its been hectic for this whole year...
And I really don't even have time for myself.

I know its only the end of October, but I really think time flies way too fast,
its like I thought it was the starting of the year,
so many things happened,
I've learned so many things this year, all of a sudden...
And I realized that I love being the ordinary 17 year old Nicole.
And I love my life.
Even though I am not all that brilliant in school,
Even though my grades are not the best in class,
but I am satisfied with what I have.
Don't like giving myself all the pressure,
try to shove all the stuff in front of my face and force myself to get no.1.
For me, as long as I get the marks I want.

I might not be brilliant in High School,
but I am waiting for my Uni,
I wanna score high for Uni.
Its a place where I get to study the things in the language I want.
Can't wait.

I guess which Uni doesn't matter,
As long as I am able to cope with the things I am studying,
And its my interest.
As long as I get to do the things I wanna do.

But right now, I am happy with what I have,
Hope my dear Tracey is doing fine,
Miss that gal so much.
Love her and hope for the best for her.

I am just happy where I am,
who I am.
And I don't care what people say,
I might suck in my Mandarin,
I dont mind,
everyone suck in something somehow.
As long as I don't lose myself on the way of achieving something.

Love my life.

I'm sorry.

I'm really sorry to talk to you like that just now.. I really am sorry...

Maybe because I was really afraid, really afraid that you are just like one of those guys i know, those guys who just came into my heart and just break it without a thought, I dont want you to be those guys.. I know you are real different from them, and I chose to believe that you are different.

I just recently felt that your love for me werent the same like before,
Maybe it went a little cold?
I dont know.
But I hope that its this retard head of mine that gave me such thoughts.

I really love you a lot,
I never love anyone like this before,
I never felt love like this before,
Never.
And I want it to last,
I pray that this love will last for eternity,
I know its impossible,
But I choose to believe the impossible,
Because that is where miracles happen.

You might not know how important you are in my life,
Words cant even elaborate how important you are.
I need you so much,
I need to talk to you every single day,
I need your voice every single day.
I cherish you so so much,
Because a guy like you is hard to find.

I love you Vic,
so so much.
And I am really sorry.

SORRY.

Helpless.

What will happen to us after the next ten years?
Will we actually get what we want?
Will we still be together like now?

I am so afraid and hopeless...

I love you too much to even let go off u...
I am gonna leave this place soon...
But really... I hope we're able to fulfill our dream...
we're gonna leave here and go to Switzerland...
Somewhere we could have a peaceful life...
Somewhere we could be alone...
Somewhere we could just stay together and not part anymore...

All I could do is pray hard....

Please! Someone just believe me!!!

Where is the fucking justice!
Yeah, I know we locked ourselves in the classroom but that doesnt mean we did anything in there... Gosh.. I fucking didnt do anything with him in there...

Yet.. I cant do anything to prove that I didnt do anything..
Feeling so fucked up now....

You know who gives a fuck anyway... go ahead just freaking punish me for my doing.
I know that I am innocent, you ppl might not believe....
But.. I wanna strongly fight for my rights... I might not have any proof to say that I didnt do anything in there... But neither you people have any proof to show that we did anything in that fucked up classroom....

I give up.. go ahead ppl....
I'll accept whats gonna happen and stuff....

Lucky

LUCKY

My love... I just cant imagine how lucky I am to have you.
You're everything to me....
This is for you:

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I am lucky to have you my dear.

Pissed off!!!!!

So what my Chinese sucks...I know that I am a bit slow in memorizing it... You dont have to laugh at me! Go ahead laugh your ass off!!! You know what, I dont care.. I dont give a shit! At least I am good in my english and Malay..Unlike you.... At least I tried... I'll get freaking good results for my chinese!!! I will!!! ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME!

S2C1

Had my class gathering during oct 1.. It was quite awesome... Had a blast there... We went Tanjung Puteri which is in Pasir Gudang... Love it a lot... Haha... There are some pics here and there.. S2C1 rockz...



This is me... they took my pic without me realizing... Haha..









Us at the room... this is the room that I slept in...




Me and my monitor... After Swimming... Haha.. He is such a funny guy!



This is me and my vice monitor. He is a talented guy i tell ya! Every gals dream bf they say.. Bt not mine!



Me, Yun Hui, Sze Nee...Dinner time... We had steam boat... which is so freaking fabulous.. Our dinner was scrumptious.. Yumm yumm..








Wanna intro some peeps from my class.. the popular ones..

This is sze nee... She may be small, but she is full with capability... She is the 3rd student in our class...Smartie pants... And an awesome friend. Awesome gal. Love her lotz!

He is Ser Guang, a windsurfer and a good cook... Had been in the same class with him for 5 years. awesome guy too!


This is Yun hui, she is the tallest and thinest gal in class.. Good in studies too... Great gal.. Good at singing... She is really mature yet filled with sense of humour... Love her too!














This Kai Huang, what can I say? He is the hottest guy in class... Which he id really an awesome dude! He is the captain of our school's basketball team, good in studies, has a great bod, quite good looking. He wants to be a Economics Professor.. He is way funny too.. every gals dream guy, but not mine.. Haha...






After this gathering, I realize how awesome this people can get.. Really funny people... they are jz awesome peeps... All the best to S2C1. Next year is our last year.. I'll miz u guys.... Love you guys!!!!

RANDOM PICS!