New hairstlye, Junk sale, School reopens again!!!

I've just got a new hairstyle on Thursday. Its a super short haircut, something like Rihanna's. Its totally weird cuz I wanted to cut my hair something like Katie Holmes, but the hairstylist think that I dont suit the hairstlye. I am still not used to this hairstyle cuz its kinda too short? But I think its kinda nice. Irony?

I went to a Junk Sale on Friday. Thanks to my sister's great information. I managed to buy quite a lot of things. Its pretty awesome! The people there are so stylish, buying second hand goods are pretty awesome. I bought a MNG bag for rm30. And a pair of shoes for rm10. Its so awesome!!!!

School reopens tomorrow! Argh~ I am so so sick!!!!!! If only time could pass faster! I wanna graduate man!!! Sob...

I guess I wont be posting any more post anymore. till I have time again. Peace up!

Lots of love,
Nicole Jaden.

Being good?

Phew~ I spend my whole morning doing house chores. Which was something abnormal for me.Hanging out the clothes to dry, wash another load, fold the dried ones, then vacuum the floor, clean the bathroom... Man... Nicole doing house chores... It's just simply WEIRD!

Victor is in Singapore now... visiting NUS. And the 987 DJ's would be there TODAY!!!!!! I mean that is so so so cool. Hope he is having fun.. I am missing him so much. It feels like he is studying in another place, and I am in mine. I guess that would be our future? Being apart for a few years. Would we back together again? I am not too sure. My future seems so uncertain.

I am still contemplating about one matter which has been torturing me, and bugging me for the whole morning. Should I go for tuition class today? I have to make this choice immanently. Argh~~~ Its so darn confusing. Why should I bother to put myself in such a "dilemma" on a holiday?? Oh well... i'll ignore.

Sorry to say, me and 18 year old kid is somehow so in love with Disney's song.=p
Can I have this dance from HSM3 and the climb by Miley Cyrus. Its so nice!!!!!

Vic baby!!! Could you please sing " Can I have this dance" with me during the singing contest?? Just for fun. Please?

I guess I wanna stop here. I gotta do my homework now... Peace up!

Back for the moment. Decisions.

Its been a long time since I lay my fingers on this dusty keyboard. Things hasn't change much since I last came here. Life's just got busier each day, my life is just filled with busy schedules- tuition, extra classes, eca, most of all studying for tests, minor ones and major ones. Life is
getting really boring somehow, just repeating the same old routine.
I am just glad that I am having a one week holiday just to relieve my "unneccesary" stress. Hate living under so much pressure, just hate life being so tensed, its like there is so much things waiting for me to be finished. Just got elected as the chairman of the fund-raising activity, which is a very stressful position.( sorry that i'm being so negative!! I could only see the bad part of being a chairman.)

Irony as it seems. I am just anticipating to graduate as fast as possible. So that I could live the life I want, go to places that I want, do things that I want. Maybe try out cool stuff, like going to Australia and visit my godparents alone. But people say that after graduating you will somehow miss highschool life. Seriously, I dont know. I guess the thing that I would miss the most, is my dearie Traceline and Zoey. And of course my society. I love ELS so much, cuz I just feel so belong there.

I just bought Breaking Dawn, read quite a lot. The last book is just propotioned to different parts. I read finish the Bella part. Bella got married with Edward Cullen, which is so so awesome!!!! I was so engrossed with the book, it felt like I was at the weddig ceremony. Loved the way Stepehenie Meyer wrote it. I salute her!!

Well, things between me and Victor are going well, I guess? Its just that these few days he is in such a down mood, which made me think so so much, letting me get worried over unnessecary stuff!!! He is really sad and down over his results. But really I hope he gets better. Through this perios of time, I just somehow realized that the person you love could seriously, just manouver your emotions, from bad to good, etc. My love for Victor, changed. but of course, not in a bad way but good. My love for him has deepened so much. No one, even myself could understand why. I am so irrecoverably in love with this guy. Our future is so uncertain. The paths we are going to walk on are so different.

Eventhough, I stil haven't decide the path I want to walk on. There are so many things that I want to do in life. Being an Accountant would be last on my list. I love Fashion. Studying fashion seems interesting. Being an image consultant would be fun. I would want to study something different. Accounting, business seems so dull. Figures confuse me. I can't use a strong word to say I hate figures. I could only use dislike. However, this is not really a time to think of such stuff. I have to finish my studies before I make a decision where and what I want to study. Some of my friends seems so certain about it.

Well, I guess I gotta end this blog, and come back to update a new post maybe few months later. Peace up.

Its been a long time.

Its been a very long time since I touched the keys on my keyboard... And I really missed the clicking sounds made from the buttons... Its just the second week of school and everything had just started and it never seems to stop. Maybe I am not used to the hectic life I once lived, however, we NORMAL humans just tend to adapt to our environment very fast. Somehow, I felt a little "abnormalness" in me, because I still can't get used to the life I am living now. Waking up at 5:30 am in the morning, kicking the sheets off my bed just to express my frustrations, brushing my teeth with my eyes closed, after that, washed my face and put my contacts on, but, my brain is still asleep... I walked to the cupboard where I left my uniform hanging. I buttoned my uniform with my eyes slightly closed. Grab my stuff, walked down the stairs with my eyes closed, which I think I am quite good at it. My morning seems to start off draggy. The thought of seeing my scrony frizzed hair Math teacher, plum petite small eyed Chinese teacher just pulls my mood all the way down to the depts of the sea. Just pondering on how boring their class would be. But the thought of me seeing my darling, slim pretty young looking accounts teacher and manly looking but very experienced Economics teacher balaced my mood.
Being elected as the monitress of the class, just somehow add more responsibility on my shoulders. Thinking of ways to support and keep my darling going on just adds on more. But all the these so called 'burden' I have was something positive rather than the negative one.
This year is indeed a different year, a year for me to rise up and be somebody. Its time for me to learn new things in life too.

I'll be back soon, whenever I have the time. Goodbye keypads....

One more thing, I wanna dedicate some words for my darling,
Its the starting of the year, challenges are yet to come, I know you are back late everytime, and there are still more work for you to accomplish. Don't admit defeat to this work, take it in a positive mood, and accomplish it in a happy mood rather than a frustrating mood. You once told me TOUGH TIMES DONT LAST BUT TOUGH PEOPLE DO. You are the tough one. Yea? You are going to be a remarkable leader. And all these are just small training for you. No matter what, I'll always be here to support you. All the way. I love you.

Flashback

Its a bit late to write about my flashback about 2008.

Last year was indeed challenging. I am just basically fighting to find myself and what I want in life. Just basically growing up. I saw the changes and everything that took place infront of my naked eye. All of us have grown up. But 2008 was an awesome year. God made me meet wonderful people who changed my life. And those who are still there to give me support.
I never ever regretted that I joined ELS. I was afraid at first but thanks to xin yi, she pulled the timid nic for an interview. And there I found my home, I found somewhere where I could finally be myself in. And there I met such great people. Like Traceline, she was a sister, a bestfriend. Emo at times, but hypo most of the time. When I met her I was so glad that we could actually talk so much about our interest.

And Tracey there are some things you have to know. Don't be too emo sometimes. Life is full of challenge, but don't cry when you face one. Face it with a optimistic spirit, and pray hard always, because God is always watching you and ever ready to lift you up with his hand. You don't have to worry that you aren't unique. Just be yourself, because everyone is different. I pray that this year, you will face challenges in a postive way. You'll learn so many new things in life and you will teach and help others with your experience. But if there is any problem or you need someone to talk to, just know that God gave you a sister here, and she will always be here for you. Be a good leader. And make us proud. I love you. Mwah!

And I met Vic. Vic was the awesome guy. Someone who I look up to. Someone who showed me what the real Nic is, he brought so much happiness in my life. He changed Nic in so many ways. And he is everything to me. He is the cheerful guy who never fail to make me laugh all the time when we hang out. And I love him so very much.
Vic darling, thanks for making my 2008 brighter, thanks for showing me what life is all about, thanks for taking me out from emo, and showing what the real Nic is. The real Nic is meant to be cheerful and happy. Thanks for your love and support all the way. And I couldn't be happier that God placed you infront of me. Thanks for changing me. And made me become more positive in life, and you made me wanna go closer to God each time. You really changed me tremendously. And I thank you for that. Really. I love you so so much.

Other than ELS. I love s2c1. Especially Nee and Yivonn were great classmates.They gave me so much support. They too made me realize what I want in life, they never fail to make me laugh all the time. I love them to bits. And I always will. I love you too gals! Three of us are going to work hard!!!! Yea? I love you both!!! Mwah! Mwah!

2008 changed me. Made me more mature, made me realized that facing challenges is a good thing, because I get to learn more things in life. Many things happened in 2008 too. Like the milk scandal in China, which obviously brought a bad name to this country. Barack Obama was the first African American who was elected as America's president. He is someone who the world including me looks up to. He promised America a change that they can belive in. And I too believe Barack Obama will definitely bring good change to this country and the world.

2009 will continue to be a great year. A year of challenge, courage and change. I pray that I'll get great results, be a good RS leader and a good friend and love to Vic, be a great friend to others. And I am ready for this year. There will be a great big break through. Cheers.

A Day with darling. 31.12.08

Went out with Vic today. Another long waited date.
Vic wore a black and gray t-shirt which really looked good on him. Very good. Made him looked taller.
We watched Australia. Really a stunning movie, Hugh Jackman is really good looking and hot. NIcole Kidman is a really pretty lady but not as good Cate Blanchet.
After movie, Vic and I decided to go for Mcdonalds take away. I had a Mcchicken and he had a double cheese burger. We then went on the bus to Danga Bay.
Danga Bay was quiet. It was sunny for the first five minutes. And then rain drops started falling on my head. But it didn't bother me at all. I was having a great time with Vic. Just looking at him smile makes me happy. He is always so postive and encouraging. Both of us weren worried bout next year. The pressure. But all we have to do is pray extra hard and have faith for next year. Like what Pastor Rajan said.. Next year is a year of courage, challenge and change. The 3c's thats what he said. And I believe both of us can do well next year with God's blessing.
And Vic's mum wished me happy birthday, and I gave her my wishes too. She actually replied my message! I don't know why, but I like Vic's mum compare to so many mum's I met. ( Of course I love my mum more!) She is such a nice and soft lady, but strong in the inside too. Thats what I think she is. She is so nice!!!! I can't get over the fact! Haha...


Okay, my birthday. I did nothing actually. But I have to thank those people who gave me wishes. Vic was first, then Jia wen, Tracey( thanks sis!!! I love ya!! Mwah!), alexandra, mel, yivonn...etc. But sze nee forgot my birhtday and actually wished me today. = = But thankz anyway.

I gotta get going to watchnight service right now... Happy new year people!!!!
Enjoy new year's eve! =)

I am tired of this....

I dont understand why...
Each time I put down the phone I just feel like crying...
I tried hard and hard to tell myself its okay....
Why do I have to sound so hypo all the time,
and you just sound all so calm...
I am tired of this...
SO SO SO FREAKIN TIRED!
Why do I have to be so hypo all the time...
I just feel all weird at times...
I hate this feeling..
I hate it so bad...
I am tired really....
Tired!