I miss you.

I miss you.
I wanna yell out loud,
I wanna let the world know that I miss you.
You are the only one that could only make me feel this way.
I cant stop thinking bout yesterday,
it was short, but awesome.
As our hands twined together,
I felt your warmth,
I felt your love,
It is unforgettable.
All I thought about at that moment,
is not to let your hand go.
I held it tight,
treasuring every moment.
It was awesome, beautiful.
Seeing you smile,
I could feel your happiness,
It brightened up my spirit.
As you hugged me,
I felt your warmth,
I felt secure,
I felt like nothing could harm me when you hugged me.
As our lips touched,
I felt warmth in my heart,
I felt nothing in this world could make me feel this way,
I felt I needed nothing else in this world.
When I am in pain,
You are my remedy,
as you rubbed your hands against mine,
as you hug me,
Your scent is euphoric,
You healed me instantly,
The pain vanished.
When I am afraid,
You gave me courage,
You gave me support.
When I felt so small,
You made me feel that I can conquer this world,
Your encouragements never failed to lift me up.
When I am all alone in the dark,
You are my light,
You are always there.
You go through pain and loneliness with me.

Only you Vic, only you can make me feel this way.
I LOVE YOU.

Now I love you even more.

I met Vic today again, finally. He is with his cousin Anthony from London. But I didn't care who was there, all I cared is about Vic. Nothing else. He looked good as usual. Seeing him smile just brightens up my day. I held his hand, the warmness I got from him... It was awesome, it feels like the first time we hold each others hands. Seeing him makes me wanna cuddle him more, makes me wanna kiss that lips of his. But unfortunately I didn't stick around long. But it was awesome. I love him so much. After today, my feelings for him deepen so much... No idea why, but I love him so much now. I love you Vic. Mwah~

I'll miss you guys a lot.

Just got the news today by darling, he said, Sze nee and I are going to separate. And I was like huh? I was doing my revision for my last test on Monday. And he suddenly told me that I am gonna part from S2C1. I was really sad, disappointed. I've been in this class for two years, I've was hated then loved. They could be the craziest crowd I've ever mixed with. Especially Nee and Yivonn. Both of them, are my best, and they will always be. They're really crazy, we do everything together. We eat, we pee, we change PE clothes together, we study together, do math together,go tuition together, watch movie together. Man... It was really awesome. Nee and Yivonn both of them really encouraged me to do my best. They encouraged me my studies, society work, they were always there for me. And now I gotta part from you both. It hurts. But always remember my heart and support will always be with you both. Even though we can't change our PE clothes together, seldom pee together, or hang out. But you both are the best. And thank you both for giving me the best memories I can have. I'll miss QZ too. He has always been the funniest guy, he is really an awesome monitor I ever met. He is indeed awesome. You take care too. 韵慧，i'll miss ya tall lady. You're so awesome! You're the funniest, mature, friend. You're really a nice friend to hang out with. I'll be next door guys. haha... Please do invite me to all your class gathering and graduation trip. I wanna have fun with ya guys again. I love ya guys to bits! Mwah~

I'll be in a new class, gonna meet new people. Everything has changed, but thank God I still have cool friends there. 明谨,dolphin,光豪，思广（i've been in the same class with him for six years! since junior one! haha!),学明，承耀。 I am trying to look at the bright side. I cried though, cuz I dont wanna part with sze nee and yivonn. Now, my 2009 goal, be the first student in class. haha... Nic is gonna do her best in her last year in High School.
But I am the first student in class.. hehe... here comes the pressure. But Nic won't stop working hard for what she wants. God will lift her up.

I lurve my sistas.

I have to say I love my sistas a lot.
They are the best I've eva had. They are always there for me. And I really do love them.
Thankz to you both and I love you both very much. Its so quiet here without you two. Love ya guys a lot! Mwah!

Super human.

This is for my darling vic,

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, On my knees

But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
Super human, heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human
Super human

Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I had it all along
I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere but love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see how love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
Super human, heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human
Super human

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I feel like I can do anything
Going going, I'm gone away in love

You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
Super human, heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human
Super human

A new changed me.

First thing first.... I think I am a bit to know this.
PARAMORE'S FINAL RIOT! IS GONNA BE OUT ON 25.11!
I am so so so pyched I tell ya! Its like I can finally see her live concerts and stuff. No more sitting in front of the comp man. haha... I am so so pyched. Its a must buy thing! =)

okay... relating to the title up there.
I guess I am motivated to change myself into someone better.
Trust me people, you'll see a new and happy nic.
Emoness is outta my life. Officially.
Today, I went to church. The youths there, most of them are from the new zealand church.
They are just full of spirit, they are like ever ready to stand up for God.
And its really wonderful how God open up in their lives.
I mean, I should be like them, being all positive and all.
Be someone strong, and get defeated by little things and challenges.
I can conquer all this fear, all this negativity in me.
I am gonna be someone different.
Someone who will acheive great things. God will help me all the way.
I have faith in him.

1 thing 2 do those 3 words 4 u. I love you.

This post is meant for my darling Vic.

Hey darling, its been days since I see you. I miss you a lot a lot! Even though we still contact each other quite often but really, its been a freaking long time since i see you. Its been a week or so, and I have to keep my hopes high for next week. Hoping I could see you again. I've waited in the classroom trying to let time pass by, hoping I could stay there as long as I could so I could see you at the gate, but I guess I was too early. I really wanna see you. You're just flooding up my thoughts. I can't help to think about you all the time. It's really insane, my mind is just bombarded by the memories we had, everything. I just can't help to replay it again and again, to get back the feeling. Cuz its really a long long time since we had time together, it has been almost a month or so. We never get to hang out, we never get to see each other that often. Each time I tell you this, you always said that it'll strengthen our bond. I just can't help but think why do you always make is sound so easy? It is not easy for me, not at all. Each time I try to stay strong for you. Hoping I could control my emotions. But each time I tried I fail. I've been trying my best to, but I kept on failing. However, you're just the guy who is meant for me, because I never ever felt such love before in my life. Ever ever. I love you so much till it hurts at times. My love for you can't be explained or be elaborated. Your grandpa just passed away yesterday, I know its really difficult for you, you don't have to tell I could feel it. You used to tell me how close you both were. And you just lose him yesterday. I know how it hurts. Losing my nanny is also something difficult for me. No one knew how important she was to me. But you're the only one. Vic, and I just really really hope that you could express more of your feelings to me. Its true you're someone quiet actually, and I learnt to accept that. But, I just hope you could express your feelings to me and tell me how you feel at times. So I could share this feeling, with you. I too treat you like my family, like the way you treat me as yours. And I treasure the time with you, and I feel like myself when I am with you. Right now as I am typing this blog post, I just feel like letting my tears out, because I really miss you so. And I can't help but to cry, cuz that's the only way I let out my frustrations and emotions. I love you.