Monday, March 8, 2010

Once its broken it will always be broken

Sometimes I tell myself there is still hope for us, there is something that we can do to mend us.

I guess I was always wrong about that. Just like a broken mirror, once it is broken its impossible to patch it up together. Even though we did pick up the broken pieces and patch it up together again, there will always be a scar. A scar that is impossible to heal.

The photos we had, the letters we wrote, the times we had just flew away with the breeze. The hurt in me was somewhat torturous, agonizing, excruciating. The pain is so intense that I couldn't even shed a single tear.

People said, cry out your river, build your bridge and walk over it. Leave it all behind.
I wanna do that but its so hard, its so difficult for me to do that. I close my eyes, I see you behind my eyelids. I see us, us that doesn't exist anymore. The pain is too tormenting.

I'll let my dreams drive me forward, and let it keep you in a place where you should always be. In my memory.

ILY

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Why is Paramore being discovered only NOW?!


The moment I had my ears on the lovely guitar playing by Josh Farro, and amazing vocals by Hayley Williams, I was in love with the band Paramore. That was raftly about 4 years ago? I was addicted to their music. And thanks to Vic that I was able to own Riot. I had them playing 24/7.

The thing I find funny that everyone only discovered them like right now... when their Brand New Eyes album is out. I got no idea, why..sigh.. But it is so good for Paramore that even people that loves... Taiwanese stars even love Paramore...So it shows how great Paramore is!!

Paramore is rocking Sg this coming Sunday. I cant go..what a shame..but its okay... there are better chances... I would love to go to their best show..which i think they would play mostly in US.

Paramore Rocks. So love them.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

...speechless...

I have officially start my lectures this week, things aren't what I expected. The standard of degree education has really took its way up to a higher level. English for business purposes is rather complicating, as I had never ever in my life got such assignments before. But of course Nic would never give up that easily. The rest of the subjects are fine. Thank God that I got the basics of Accounting and Economics. Hallelujah! Tomorrow's lecture would be Quantitative Methods. Hope it ain't frustrating...


VICTOR
You have been acting weird these days, getting busy with your life, and we're so far apart and I try so hard to catch up with you, I miss you so much. But you on the other hand is busy with your classes. I am not blaming you of course. My life is going to be so busy next week. I have long hours of courses, I guess I won't be talking to you that often anymore? I dont know. I know that you are feeling down with your Uni stuff, hoping to get into the Uni you want. I understand how you feel, you have all the rights in the world to feel down if you didnt get the acceptance from the Uni. I totally get it. You chose to go to KLIUC. I guess if thats your choice then I hope you are happy with it. Don't even think that I am happy that you are coming over to KL and we can meet each other much often. No, I am happy when you're happy. Even though you are in KLIUC, but I am in Selangor and you are in KL. We still have quite a distance from each other. All I can say is I love you very much. As always. All I pray for is for you to be happy thats all.
I love you Vic, so so much.