Saturday, February 27, 2010

Stilettos and women

As I pace the mall crowded with people, seeing women walking in a pair of stilettos is somewhat a common scene to find. They walked with full confidence, and amazing posture. Some wore peep toes, some wore gladiators, some wore pumps. And I would always admire their beauty in a corner, always hoping that one day I had the boldness to wear my peep toe pumps and parade the malls just like the ladies I admired and gave full attention too.

So yesterday was the day my boldness was somewhat found and I decided I shall wear my peep toe pumps and go shopping with my godparents. I pair the peeps toes with a navy blue gap casual long tee and my leather leggings. My peep toes looked good in this outfit. And I thought I looked amazing. And so walking under the scorching heat with this outfit seem ridiculous to many, but as women, or rather ladies, we just don't bother as long as we looked good.

I arrived the mall, I stood out the car, walking straight up with full confidence, but at times a little self-consious. So I did what I always wanted to do in a very long time is to parade the mall in this pair of peep toes. I, like many other ladies were admired by little girls. Little girls who always wanted to be like us when they reached the age of vanity.

However, pain visited me in just two hours time. My ankles was getting tired, and I had cramps on my legs. And I had to put a smile on my face as I wouldnt want to show my aunts and godparents that I was walking in pain. I had to hold on to shelves in shops to rest my legs for a few seconds. It was such a tormenting trip. Yet I refuse to show pain, I refuse to give in to the pain, my ego is never going to be stepped down by this pair of peep toes. I walked, paraded the mall with a great amount of excruciating pain.

I managed to pull through and off we headed into the car. I took off my heels as soon as I stepped in the car. I then had a sudden relief, as if something heavy was off my chest. Relieved was the only vocabulary I could ever think off after that.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Sungei Wang

I woke up in a shock around 11 am, I had to blame my room for being so dark that I could hardly even see the sunlight. I knew that I was about to go to Sungei Wang around 1pm. So I rushed, get myself done speedily fast(my fast applies to an hour and a half.)

The weather is really unbearable, hot yet humid. Not every Caucasians favourite weather. My housemate and I had to squeeze like a sardines in the small car. 4 of us in the backseat.

Sungei Wang is packed with people, for obvious reasons. It was my first time actually to have a stroll in sungei wang. The place is filled with shops that its not really my liking, the mall is rather rundown compared to other malls, its like the holiday plaza in Johor. However its a place filled with cheap stuff... Of course dont expect anything unique, as most of the stuff is imported from China, and obviously its comes in a big bundle. So things there are quite typical in my opinion. I didnt quite enjoy strolling in this mall. The only thing I was satisfied is that the magazines there are cheap, Nylon was only 9.90, American issue. And the Gap tee was 19, and of course lovely and satisfying lunch. I had Teppanyaki, heaps of vege and cuttlefish. I was so stuffed with all of the food. Cuttlefish panfriend teppanyaki style, seasoned with salt and pepper. Sprinkled with fried garlic. LOVE! Wish I could have it now AGAIN! (starving, I am...) Enough of the food talk, thats all about Sungei Wang. I have to make a move to satisfy my growling stomach with a cup of mushroom soup. Peace out.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Jesus is Awesome!!

I always believed that God has His plans for me, wherever I go... I am so grateful that Lord has everything planned out for me...

Finally I have started my Uni life... My darling parents are such wonderful darlings...they have been running errands for me and allow me to settle down.. I really am grateful for them.. I'll miss them so much..sobs.... God has been watching over me...my present apartment is so much better than the one i am suppose to live in... I really am grateful towards God, I love him so much!!

Father God, I pray that whilst I am here.. I pray that you will guide me, sent the Holy Spirit to watch over me, and not let me astray. I pray that I will be in favour with God and men, I'll be the head and not the tail, be a winner and not a loser, and be a conquerer in Christ Jesus. I love you Father Lord. Amen.

I miss you Vic, and I promise. I'll keep loving you till one day, if God has his plans.... I love you Vic. So much!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

I'll Miss you





Time flew so fast that it is my time now to go on with my life.
Vic, I'll miss you very much.
I can do this, and I will heed your advice.
Thanks for such a lovely day yesterday. I enjoyed everything about it.

Thanks. I love ya.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

having fun to the fullest!

I am at my weakest and most exhausting moment right now and yet my will to blog didn’t fail me. I had to blog as the memories and emotions are still strong enough to bring out life to my post.

I attended a CNY party in Kong Hao’s yesterday. The house is filled with people. The ambience of new year filled the air. I was in the mood of celebration, drinking and most of all FUN! I was able to meet up with Peisi and Peiqi. I was jumping from one person to another, catching up with my friends. Purely having so much fun. I had a can of Heineken and few glasses of red wine. I had a Merlot. It was quite okay, though Merlot did nauseate me for a moment due to my bad experience in drinking. We were camwhoring, acting like the craziest  bunch ever.

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This is me writing the lantern. The whole lantern thing works this way. Its a Chinese tradition for us to write our wishes on the lantern, light it and let it fly. It is suppose to make your wish come true. It works like the hot air balloon theory. In Chinese is called Kong Ming Deng. Hmmm.. I am not too sure its going to fulfil my wish but it sure did amuse me. :D

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There goes the lantern… Floating in the air. Hope it makes its way to heaven to grant my wish.:)

 

I went to Peisi’s around 2 am… Chatted with Peggy and Peisi till 5 am in the morning. I do love doing this. Though I am experiencing the after effects of it now. sobs…sobs..

We went in Singapore later in the afternoon, settled some administration errands in SIM. and off we head to Marina Square. 

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I took this photo before heading to SG. ROAR!!

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Okay, I have to say Kong Hao did spend quite a fortune(not really a fortune) on this bear thingy…. We spent and hour plus in that arcade and went home…EMPTY HANDED!! i have to admit I love the bear..its cute…but no..its not me… It’ll end up like every soft toy in my place..making friends with a civilization called DUST! Not every toy is like Fury(my white seal) that lucky..hahaha…

Anyways, I had such an awesome time with them. My system is going down very soon in just a few minutes… I am so so exhausted…. I love you Peisi, Peggy, Kong Hao… thanks for today… I had an awesome time with you guys..we must do this again sometime…

Goodnight world.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Uni life?


When I was a little younger I always thought that I would start my college life in Melbourne, I always thought that I had the chance or at least I thought that it is confirmed that I would be in Melbourne furthering my studies. Seems like my dream didn't come true. I would be starting in KL instead. Doing everything local. However I had to admit that studying in Melbourne is rather challenging because the Unis are rather hard to get in. I always thought Victoria Uni is quite and okay Uni, but after hearing from my aunt. I dont think so.

Well, starting in Taylors would be different. I am somewhat excited and nervous at the same time. A new chapter of my life will start very soon in just a few days. I hope I wont wound up clubbing and stuff. Cuz thats not what i wanna go for.

I have only one thing to focus on is to migrate to Aus. So, I have to work hard and see how things go. I dont want this dream of mine to perish just like my furthering my studies in Aussie dream. God will lead me..

Its 1 am. I think I have to turn in. Movie day tomorrow followed after Kong Hao's cny party. Hope I wont get drunk tomorrow. I ll have limited alcohol consumption. ( I hope) Cuz he has a box of merlot and heineken. maybe a cup of merlot and a bottle of heineken will do. Thanks to my uncle that I have a little knowledge or two in wine. :D

Peace out.

Monday, February 15, 2010

CNY 2010

The poon family portrait.

I had no idea why won't I post a valentine blogpost and CNY blogpost together. Oh well, awkwardness would be my excuse for it. This years' Cny and Valentines day falls on the same day.

The sound of the crackers filled my neighbourhood in the strike of twelve. Some people might think its a nuisance, some people love the feeling of it. For me, its just a little disturbing because I was half asleep. sorry for not embracing cny's ambience.This is what I wore for CNY. The blouse is from Aus, ginger floral skirt from cotton on, nine west heels, and the bib necklace from forever new(aus). My dad finds the bib necklace weird. Oh well... Oh, not sure anyone noticed, I actually dyed my hair, its a little dark brown. I am satisfied. I guess that what I am opting for. :D
This is me setting up the dinner table in my grands' place. I had the best dinner for the past two days. Love.

I head to CS with the family to watch Percy Jackson and the lightning theif. I would rate that movie 4 out of 5. its kinda good. but its so harry potter-ish... No doubt is directed by chris columbus.

School starts next week. Freaky.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Valentine’s Day

Chinese New Year and Valentines day falls on the same day I guess… It is much unique this year… Last year I was able to celebrate with a someone special, but this year seems to be much different. I had no valentine. But I guess somehow its valentines day we must let the person we love know that we love them, so I decided to put it here. Maybe he’ll see it, maybe he wont. At least, I did show my love for him.

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God has his own plans, I always tell myself that. He has his time for me to have something, to experience something. I got in ELS, and coincidently you were my partner. Both of us were leaders to lead the society to take part in something we never took part before. There I admired your leadership, your capability, and to find that you were kind hearted, you had qualities that I’ve never seen anyone had. I was amazed, yet I told myself I couldn’t fall for you, because I see myself as someone incapable, I find myself just like any other typical girl. Yet, God gave us the opportunity to get to know each other, and you were the one who admired my capability, you said I was pretty even though I looked like a mess, you encouraged me and made me laugh when I was down. You were someone that I needed to see every day, you were someone who played such an important role in my life.

My stupidity and curiosity broke our bond. It left us alone crying, shedding tears of pain. Fill us with hopelessness and despair. We never did saw this coming, we never thought that just someone insignificant could just tear us apart. You would always advice me, never let anyone’s words affect both of us, yet, as ignorant as I am, as naive as I was. I heed your words and brought us here. We needed each other, but we couldn’t embrace each other anymore.  Because you were filled with fear, fear of getting yourself hurt again, and I was filled with regret. However, today appears to be Valentine’s day, I am still having the card you gave me, I read through it again. And today I will tell you that I love you. I love you so much, and I would never put you in such a situation again. I will always love you till God has something else or someone else for me, only then I will move on from here, I’ll keep our memory in a special place, a place no one can occupy, only you.

Vic, I love you.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Back to basics

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Went to Singapore yesterday with Peisi. I have to be honest its my first time going with my friend, and I had no idea whatsoever to travel around Singapore. I have to be honest I dont fancy Singapore that much apart from the abundance of fashionable clothes. However the rest, I’ll just keep it to myself. Thank you Peisi for bringing me around, and to take the trouble to take me to places I’ve never been, I had a great time with you. Love you so much!! 

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I still miss Australia a lot, miss everything about it. But its time for me to go back to reality and go to KL and start my Uni  life. Australia can wait for three years, I will be back as I said before.

Had a short time chatting with Kong hao and Peisi. I really enjoy their company and their funny jokes. I really love spending time with them. I will so miss them so much if I were to go to Uni. Love you guys heaps.

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Vic is on his way to Jerantut, and I am staying back for CNY here. No other plans. My feelings for Vic is somewhat complicated. I dont know what am I to do if I have to stop seeing him for a few months, I dont know. Life has to go on. I made a promise to him, that if I would see him again in the future, and there is a possibility that both of us were to see each other often, and if both of us were to be single. I would give both of us a chance again. Vic, lets leave us to God to decide. If you are mine, you’ll be mine eventually.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Happy to be home♥



I am so happy to be home, apart from the bad air and boring roads, but to be able to be with my family is really the best thing ever. I couldnt be happier enough to spend time with them. Two weeks more to Uni, I am trying to cherish as much time as I can with them.


I love you mum and dad. You both are the best ever.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Back to the same routine....

Time passed so fast. I was really shocked that my 5- week holidays is all over. I stepped out the plane, I wont stop whinning about how humid the weather is, the grass is much yellower than Australia. And so on... I really miss Melbourne. I miss the architecture, miss the air, miss the people, the place, miss it a lot. But I ll make sure that I ll be back there again. Because I love the city, I love everything about it.

Went to check Taylors out today, and I got my application accepted. So I guess there's where I am going to start my new life. It fears me, new environment, new people... I am scared..But at the same time I am excited to be able to start a new life.

I am having a slight jetlag... Off to sleep I's going to....*yawns*

Missing Uncle Chu and Aunt Theresa...=( sobs...

Friday, February 5, 2010

put a smile on your face though it hurts

I am going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try and follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes

And run
From them, from them
With no direction
We'll run from them, from them
With no conviction

'Cause I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me

And we just go in circles

Well Now I'm told that this is life
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Would someone care to classify,
Of broken hearts and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me

They echo me in circles

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Surprise!

It was such a boring day for me, I was so reluctant to go out. The weather report reported today was showering... So I had no intention whatsoever to set my foot out today. I was literally laying my arse on the couch flipping through channels. There I sat, and my godfather came home from work. He went upstairs... then came down again. He walked towards me, streched out his hand and gave me the box. " A gift for my beloved goddaughter" he said. I sat there, stunned, filled with joy. He bought me a new netbook. I was so pysched. Happy, contented. I couldnt believe my eyes. I jumped and hugged him. Slurring thank yous a lot... as my eyes and focus was on full concentration on the netbook.

I guess this Aussie trip was really a great one, my godmother bought me a pair of 5 inch nine west. and my godfather bought me a netbook. I guess all these years I havent been in contact with my godparents, and I think they enjoyed my company around them. This trip didn't only filled me materialistically but spiritually. I learned so much, I really got myself exposed.

I had to thank Vic for all of these. The root of this trip was because Vic was on his way to Jakarta, and I thought I couldn't handle it, so I thought that I would also go on a trip to Australia to expose myself. It was a decision out of impulse. And I managed to expose myself. Learned a lot.

PS: Yesterday was a great day in St. Kilda beach, I was soaking myself under the sun, being one of those tanning wannabes, but I guess it didnt turn out that well, cuz I wasnt all that tan after the sun bathing. Thanks to Nu Skin's SPF lotion. BTW, there's this italian guy named Natt came over and said to hi to us. I was feeling unusual as I knew that there was someone who has been noticing me from afar. I felt weird. So then he said Hi, introed himself, and asked me and shan to come over to his party, in fitzroy. How random is that. He had dread locks and a lip piercing, I suppose I would rate his looks as above average. If I were daring enough, I would go to his party. But somehow I know that I am not such a person. Anyways, a moment to remember. We were smart actually, he wanted our number, but we asked for his. So great stuff, no harrasments to handle. LOL.